just a day

Chris really stepped up today, it was great. I needed to finish some things for a swap( had to go to the LSS, an hour away, and work there) Joel needed to go to the mall (with him, need/want to go to the mall is about the same thing,lmbo) Chris dropped me off at the LSS and took the boys to the mall. They had a really good time, and came back and picked me up. It was really nice for me not to have to handle all of that by myself.
We are going to have a great dinner, steaks on the george forman and baked potatoes. Easy, quick but oh so good dinner. It is starting to get cooler( like 85,lol) at night now so we can eat soup. I have been hankering soup for a few weeks, and am going to make a lot of crock pot soups this fall/winter.

on a mission

I have been on a mission for the past few months to declutter. To get rid of stuff.
I have spent the last 22 years collecting stuff. Stuff for my dream house. Stuff for my home. Stuff for my kids. Stuff for teaching and stuff for crafts.
I am a bargin hunter, so I got a great deal on all this stuff. My kids have become bargin hunters too, so they have been collecting too,lol.
This week, I filled our trash can completely full, two days before they are coming to pick up trash. I have been to goodwill twice. I was able to control myself while in the thrift store too,lol. ( Lets not bring home MORE clutter,lmbo.)
Now that I am pretty much set, I feel like this is "it", I am not moving again, stuff that I have been collecting either has a place or it doesn't. That has been helpful in getting rid of stuff. I have( so far) not been sad about anything I have thrown or given away. No regrets.
I am trying to donate everything that could possibly have a use, or recycle it, and only throw away absolute junk.I am not a big fan of throwing away stuff, adding to the landfill problem.
That is why, normally, we have just one bag of trash a week. Our paper/cardboard is either recycled, used as weed barrier or composted. Our food scraps are either composted or fed to our animals. Pretty much the only trash we have is plastic stuff. I feel good about that!
I have a loooooong way to go.
I am the only one on board here, still after 2 or 3 months. My dh will not get rid of one thing. Shirts that he has not worn in the entire 8 years that I have known him. Shirts that are too small and are missing more buttons than are there.
My kids will get rid of clothes that do not fit them anymore, but that is about it. Joel refuses to get rid of any toy that he has ever touched.
It's ok, one day at a time,lol.
Josh's x-box broke yesterday. That really stinks.
I shopped for some more landscape plants today, spent 20 bucks and got quite a few things. Josh and I are going to get them planted tomorrow.
Gonna sign off for now.

it is fixed!

My computer is fixed woo hoo!
Tonight is a football game, we are predicted to win-woo hoo!My parents are coming, that is always fun.
Today we got a lot of errands done, hopefully tomorrow will be an easy day. I want to scrap!
I have some housework to get done- see ya.

oh crap

Well, my computer is not fixed, not exactly sure what is going on, but it may be the keyboard. I got a new one and when I get home I am going to see if that is what is up. grrrrrrrrrrrrr

hanging in here............

We have beeng getting some wild storms the past couple of days. We lost power yesterday.
I also thought that there was something wrong w/ my computer, so I took it in and of COURSE, just like taking your car to the mechanic, it is not doing it for him,lol. Well, good news is it did not cost anything, hopefully when I get it home it will work. ( I am at a friends now, waiting on Joel to get done w/ football practice.
My friend Kristie is in the hosptial. She had a horrible kidney infection and had to be admitted. She is not enjoying her stay, but she looks better today. I hope that they are able to send her home tomorrow, so she can rest,lol.
I made her a homemade card, she really enjoyed it. She will be on the list for future homeade projects,lol.
Having trouble w/ my ex again. Mostly financial, although he has stopped calling and seeing the boys. That lasted a whole 5 months this time. Ugh.
My dh and I also got into it because he keeps saying " I don't want to hear it" when I try to vent to him about either my ex or a girlfriend that is kind of driving me crazy. I told him that I should always be able to talk to him about anything. He said he doesn't really mean he doesn't want to hear it. I asked him what he really means, and he explained that I tell him the same old thing over and over and he does not want to hear it. LOL I said, well, sounds like you don't want to hear it, and that is what you are saying and that is what you mean. I don't agree w/ having off limit topics w/ your spouse, and it is bothering me a lot, especially w/ me feeling so lonely lately. I might try that on him, next time he goes on and on about one of his tv shows or a problem from work that I don't particularly care about. I am not much for games, but sometimes it is the only thing he understands.
My mom has those off limit topics w/ me too, w/ regards to my ex. That really frustrates me. It makes me feel alone and like I can not count on these people when I need them. I am going to be pissed off if I have to pay a damn therapist to vent about my ex to,lol. I can not change the situation. It is what it is. I handle it the best I can, and I am raising his children w/o help. But sometimes, I need to vent a little and say things that are not nice. I don't drink or smoke. I can not get lost in the pain that way. I need to talk a little. Sorry to be such a burden to everyflippinone.
Wow, I did not realize how pissed off I was when I started this entry. I honestly could not figure out what I was going to talk about,lol.
I told Chris last night that I was going to count my blessings, because that is usually what brings me out of a funk. I did not do that today, so I will do that here and then close.
1. My parents are a great source of comfort. I will never starve, be homeless or face adversity alone as long as they are on this earth.
2. My kids are healthy, and they are not missing.
3. We will eat dinner tonight, and everyone in my family likes what we are having.
4. I am thankful for my car, even though I spent way too much time today in it,lol.
5. I am thankful for sonic drinks.
6.I was thankful nothing is wrong w/ my computer.
7. I am thankful for having the medication I need.
8. I am thankful for this blog, it sure helped me out today....

Monday

Well, my lss class was a success, and they think I am God's gift to scrapbooking,lol. Neat to have some validation.
Chris is back to pissing me off, he just doesn't get it. I want him to spend time w/ me and spend time as a family. He always has an excuse, and I am tired of them.
I overdid it today, and am already sore,lol better slow down. I did some freezer cooking, made the "guts" of 4 apple pies-yum!
I have a big important meeting tomorrow afternoon, if you are reading, keep me in your thoughts please.
I scrapped Joel's 16th birthday today. Man, 16. What is Joel doing at 16? Learning to drive, playing football, taking AP classes. Eating like there is no tomorrow, or even later today. Taking his pre sat test tomorrow.
What was I doing at 16? It was 1983 and I was boy crazy as all get out. I was dating my future DH, Joel and Josh's dad. I was in marching band, and putting as little effort as possible into passing my classes even though I was very bright. I was not really interested in driving yet, I was kinda scared, plus my boyfriend wanted to take me everywhere,lol. I ate pizza, french fries and diet coke every day at my HS cafeteria for 2.00. I worked at a preschool after school for 3 hrs a day, and usually had something to do at night. I was either babysitting, having youth group at church or marching band. I guess Joel comes by being busy honestly.

title schmitle

I got sidetracked from talking to my friend, and prolly won't talk to her now. I have a few issues on my plate right now and have no time to worry about anyone else,lol.
It is easier NOT to think about her while I am being busy, so it is not on my mind as much.
It is still hot here in az, going to wear shorts to the football game tonight.
It is our HS's homecoming today, and the dance is tomorrow. Joel is taking a girl, he is being so secretive about her, kinda funny. I asked his friend about her and he would not spill.
I love the internet. I liked my life before I had a computer. I was busy, and fufilled. Now I can not imagine a day w/o it. Even when Chris was in the hospital, I did not go more than 3 days w/o checking email, checking my favorite message boards, or looking up information on what they were telling me about Chris.
Today, I looked up directions, information on parenting teens, and of course checked my email, sent some emails and checked the favorite message boards. Tomorrow I will pay some bills online, without having to drive all over, or even use a stamp. I am still technologically impaired but I have learned enough to help myself out,lol.
I am teaching a class at my lss tomorrow, hoping it is a full house ( I am paid by the participant,lol).