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I was a preschool teacher for almost 20 years. I had lots of wonderful experiences. I have now been a 911 dispatcher for 6 yrs now.I love animals,small towns, good food ,karaoke, baseball and walking around our local zoo. Makes me feel at home,lol. I live and breathe scrapbooking and my two adult sons. They really are what is most important in my life.

Tuesday, September 27, 2005


I have some goals for this week.
1) organize planner and write mission statement
2) organize freezer and fridge-don
e3) work on scrap area - done, but in progress
4) journal the 3 layouts that are sitting here-done
5) get at least one box to goodwill-done
6) plant flowers in wheelbarrow
7) research scrapbook class ideas/compensation - started
8) transplant plant in bathroom
9) clean off back deck and water plants, get ready for fall annuals-done
10) finish cleaning and organizing potting area

LOL that is just to remind myself of "the list"
tomorrow JOsh has a home game YEAH! I did not go last week because their game was 2 hrs away. I am not liking this new district one bit,lol.
I am such a pack rat. Well, I was. And now that I want to stop,lol I am a bit overwhelmed. I just try to do some each day, and I guess that is how it all got here, so hopefully that is how it will all get out of here.
I am really frustrated with a friend of mine. I feel horribly guilty about being frustrated. Why do I judge her? Why do I hold her to a higher standard than someone I don't know? Why do I understand these traits in my son, but not in her, for example?
She moved, without thinking about the effects on her small children. She decided not to change their schools, so now they (9 and 7) ride ONE bike to school, crossing several major streets. After school they ride to the old apt complex and "hang out" until she gets off of work. She does that because the new complex does not allow children on the playground w/o adult supervision and the old complex does not have that rule. What if they need to use the restroom? What if they hurt themselves? She said I am always negative.
Then, she changed jobs, because she hated her other one. Fine, but you were off early and had summers off. Now she started her new job and she hates it because she has to work late DUH!
And this boyfriend situation is beyond frustrating. She keeps breaking up and getting back together with him.The kids don't like him, but she says it is her life and they are not the ones alone. How much can she like him if she keeps breaking up w/ him? They were broken up a week this time and she got bored on Saturday and called him to take her dancing and now bam, he is back in. She told him he could come back if he goes to the psychiatrist since he is crazy.
When she tells me this, it is clear to me that she is having some issues. Why am I not more sympathetic? I am furious w/ her and I actually have even thought of calling cps because of this whole bike ride/hanging out thing. I have offered to help when I can. SO that part I can feel better about, but I am not a lot of help because of course I have my own issues,lol. This is the friend who told me that I allow my kids to run my life ( the comment made after I told her I had to go pick Joel up from football practice.
I love her and care about her. SHe is a good friend to me, and helps me out when she can. If that were not true I could move on from being her friend just fine.
I think the frustration might come from her reaction to anything I say. With my other friends we all share our opinions, and then we can take it or leave it. IF I tell her my opinion she freaks, so I am holding this in. Not saying I would be able to like her choices but maybe I would not be as frustrated from biting my tongue. but for now, I bite.

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

top 10 scrapbooking mantras

This is the blog challenge on 2peas this week.
1) Do what you like, like what you do.
2) try anything once
3) what is the rush??? it takes as long as it takes
4)go to crops, and scrap at home, variety is the spice of life
5) remember to scrap yourself
6)find your style
7) include the journaling and handwriting of your family
8) scrap the bad times,too
9) invest in good tools
10) have fun

I cleaned out the fridge and freezer, so that is done on my list. The week is getting away from me, and I have football the next three nights so that list may move on to next week,lol.

Friday, September 16, 2005

the pot calling the kettle black

As I was visiting the blogs of my friends, I noticed people are not posting to them as often as I would like to read them. After checking friend number 5, and no updates I was getting frustrated.
Then I looked at mine. DOH! no room to complain lol.
I have been very busy here, football is life, at least according to Joel, Josh and of course Chris has to watch all the games on TV,lol. I love watching Joel and Josh play, that is for sure. I found a mom w/ a ds on the same team as Joel who wants to carpool to away games, so that is great. Any help w/ this 3.00 a gallon gas stuff,eh? Plus I hate to drive. I told my mom last night if I were to win the lottery, I would still cook, do laundry and all that, but I would hire a driver.
Life is good here. I am a little annoyed w/ DH but I guess a little is better than a lot, right??
I have to get the guys from a football game ( neither one is playing, but they want to watch it), so I decided that I would go to karaoke while I wait on them to finish up. That way, I am near their school, rather than all the way at home, or sitting waiting on them in the school parking lot. Dh and I were going to go, have fun together. Now he does not feel like going, so I am going to have to go alone. He does not get how lonely I am, he really doesn't. He probably never will. I am always alone. At all the kids games, at all their school functions, he is never there. Part of it is his job, part of it is him. Anyway, I am not surprised at this, just bummed.
I have been scrapbooking a lot this week. I now have 3 layouts done that need journaling, just waiting on joel so I don't mess up the stats and stuff from his last baseball season.
I am going to scrapbook tomorrow, and I am going to talk to a lady who just opened a lss in town about teaching or running crops there. I don't need to get rich, just hoping to get something fun going/meet some other people and maybe make a few bucks. It is kind of in a funky location, I hope it does well. She seemed great on the phone.
Josh is still doing great, I keep getting nice comments from his teachers. I am beyond thrilled and relieved.
I planted a bunch of seeds today, I am hoping for some baby trees to pop up soon.
I plan to do some more decluttering this weekend, I will let you know how many boxes I haul out of here!

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

50 things

What is your name spelled backwards? ASIL
Where were your parents born? Wisconsin
What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer? AIM
What’s your favorite restaurant? Native New Yorker
Last time you swam in a pool? Last night
Have you ever been in a school play? not as an actress but as a musician
How many kids do you want? want 3, have 2
Type of music you dislike most? anything loud shhhhhhh already,lol.
Are you registered to vote? Yes
Do you have cable? no, satellite though
Have you ever ridden on a moped? no
Ever prank call someone? no
Ever get a parking ticket? no
Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? never
Where is the farthest place you have traveled to? from AZ to WI
Do you have a garden? yes
What’s your favorite comic strip? baby blues or family circus
Do you really know all the words to your national anthem? yes
Bath or shower, morning or night? shower in morning
Best movie you’ve seen in the past month? hmm, I re watched a fave, mystic river
Favorite pizza topping?ham/pineapple
Chips or Popcorn? popcorn
What color lipstick do you usually wear? never wear lipstick
Have you ever smoked peanut shells? no, never heard of doing it either,lol.
Have you ever been in a beauty pageant? no
Orange Juice or Apple? orange
Who was the last person you went out to dinner with and where did you dine? my parents, sister, and my immediate family @ IHOP
Favorite type chocolate bar? special dark
When was the last time you voted at the polls? The last presidential election
Last time you ate a homegrown tomato? last season
Have you ever won a trophy? no
Are you a good cook? yes
Do you know how to pump your own gas? yes, but my mom doesn't.
Ever order anything from an infomercial? yes
Sprite or 7-up? sprite
Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work? no
Last thing you bought at a pharmacy? medication
Ever throw up in public? no
Would you prefer being a millionaire or find true love? true love, it's all that matters.
Do you believe in love at first sight? no
Ever call a 1-900-Number? no
Can exes be friends? yes
Who was the last person you visited in a hospital? my son
Did you have a lot of hair when you were a baby? no
What message is on your answering machine? you have reached 520-xxxxxxxx
What’s your all time favorite Saturday Night Live Character? I loved chris farley and adam sandler, and all of the charachters that they played.
What was the name of your first pet? cocoa
What is in your purse? don't carry a purse, but my planner is my life!
Favorite thing to do before bedtime? hang w/ my chatroom buds- hey were have you been lately?
What is one thing you are grateful for today?
That ds#2 is still elligable to play football!

Monday, September 05, 2005

my new favorite tune

I am loving the new Van Zant tune " Help Somebody". There are so many different words of wisdom in this song.

Well grandaddy was a hillbilly scholar, blue collar of a man...
He came from the school of "you don't need nothin' if you can't make it with your own two hands"
He was backwoods, backwards, used words like: no sir, yes ma'am, by god, I'll be darned, hell yeah I'm American..
and all the years he walked this earth
I swear all he did was work.
He said the devil dreams on an idle horseso you listen to me squirt..
Don't get too high on the bottle, and get right with the man.
Fight your fights, find your grace and all the things that you can't change, and help somebody if you can
Now Granny said sonny stick to your gun if you believe in something no matter what
cause it's better to be hated for who you are
Than loved for who you're not.
She was 5 feet of concrete New York born and raised on a slick city street.
She'll stare you down, stand her ground, still kickin' and screamin' at 93
I remember how frail she looked in that hospital bed taking her last few breaths of life and smiling as she said
Don't get too high on the bottle, just a little sip now and then,
fight your fights, find your grace,and all the things you can't change
and help somebody if you can,and get right with the man.
I never let a cowboy make the coffee
yeah thats what Granny always said to my Grandad
and he'd say never tell a joke that ain't that funny more than once
and if you wanna hear God laugh, tell Him your plans
Don't get too high on the bottle, get right with a man, son.
fight your fights, find your grace,and all the things you can't change
and help somebody if you can
and get right with the man and get right with the man.

So that is it- my new favorite song,lol.

Friday, September 02, 2005

are you ready for some football?

Good thing I was ready,lol.
Josh won his first HS football game this week, 45-12. He is really doing well in school, and his teachers are wonderful men and women.
Joel also won his game, 25-0.He is in heaven, he gets a lot of playing time, and is captain. All of his hard work is paying off w/ this coach. This coach really rewards hard working players, and Joel works hard for sure.
He is beyond stressed though, with school, football, and his job. The job is almost over, but it really is taking its toll on him now. He is losing things, forgetting things, and the smallest things are upsetting to him. I think it will get easier at the end of sept when his job ends, and maybe he gets back into the swing of things in football, and they cut down on some practices.
My east set pool that we started setting up last Sunday is almost finished now,lol. You are supposed to be able to set it up in 30 mins but apperantly they have not met my DH. It is up, and filled, now I need to get DH to finish the stuff w/ the filter/pump etc.
I am kind of bugged these days with judgemental people. I try not to let them upset me because A)- not worth my time,energy and B) if I sit in judgment of them, for being judgemental how am I any better?
But since it is my blog,lol I am going to take a few minutes and get this off of my chest.
God loves all of us. None of us are any better than any other of us. Period. God is our judge. It is not for us to do.
Everything is not black and white. I have morals, and values and issues that I believe in. Good for me. I try to teach my children what my values and beliefs are. I feel that is my job, to teach them about mine, then send them off into the world and hope that they find their own morals, values and beliefs. They won't match mine exactly. Neither do my neighbors, my friends or even all of the people in my same faith. Good for them.
There are lots of things that people judge others about. Weight, how much education, someones job or chosen career, clothing, shoes, sahm/work/daycare, CM style scrapping, the car someone drives and the list goes on and on. I sure don't have the energy to worry about anyone else. I wonder how people spend that much time out of their day, not only to notice whatever they judge someone about, but then to post on a message board or call their friend or whatever.
I am never shy about sharing my viewpoint, even when I am not asked. But I find a way to share it w/o "calling someone out" or being directly offensive. My viewpoint is just that, mine. It isn't for everyone, maybe it isn't for anyone. No biggie. I am totally confident in my opinions and therefore don't feel the need to force them on anyone. I also am not threatened by someone w/ a differing viewpoint.
I wish we were less judgemental. It serves no purpose. It is hurtful to everyone, especially to the one who is doing the judging. Every time they do it, it closes their mind just a little bit more.
Sure, there are things that I find unacceptable. There are people who I have chosen not to hang with or even talk to. That is how I take care of ME. When I look at the short list of people who I don't have contact with, my list is very short, and it seems as though it is their judgmental-ness that came between us, not some other issue.
I urge you- open your hearts, open your minds. I saw a siggy on a website the other day that said "be kind to everyone because everyone is having a hard time". and then oprah's saying " when they know better they will do better"