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I was a preschool teacher for almost 20 years. I had lots of wonderful experiences. I have now been a 911 dispatcher for 6 yrs now.I love animals,small towns, good food ,karaoke, baseball and walking around our local zoo. Makes me feel at home,lol. I live and breathe scrapbooking and my two adult sons. They really are what is most important in my life.

Thursday, July 28, 2005

another fun survey

This survey is courtesy of Tricia, I guess, I copied it from Donna,lol.
A is for Age – 37
B is for Booze – I do not drink alcohol.
C is for Career – I taught for almost 20 years.
D is for Dad’s name - Larry
E is for Essential item to bring to a party – food!
F is for Favorite songs at the moment –Something More by Sugarland
G is for Goof off thing to do – play on the computer, scrapbook, read mags, watch tv
H is for Hometown -Phoenix, AZ
I is for Instrument you play – flute, piccolo, guitar
J is for Jam or Jelly you like -strawberry or peach
K is for Kids -Joel/15 JOsh/14
L is for Living arrangement – Me, Chris, Joel and Josh, w/ all of our animals
M is for Mom’s name - Sandy
N is for Names of best friends - I plead the fifth
O is for overnight hospital stays – 1989 and 1991, birth of my sons - I have also spent the night with Joel for a week as an infant, 5 days w/ Josh when he was 10, and almost 2 weeks when my dh had his heart problem.
P is for Phobias – not knowing where my kids are, not being in control of a situation, dying before my kids reach 18..
Q is for Quote you like – from Ray Barrone ( Ray Ramano) " We are so worried that our kids won't have a future, that we are taking away their present."
R is for Relationship that lasted longest - I was married to my kids' dad for 11 years.
Siblings – one younger sister, who is also a teacher. NO, our mom is not one.
T is for Texas , Ever been? - yes! Loved it-thanks again Vivian
U is for Unique trait – ok, I can not think of one,lol.
V if for Vegetable you love – fresh green beans
W is for Worst traits – I am as hard on other people as I am on myself. It takes a concious effort on my part not to be.
X- is for XRays you’ve had – spine, both ankles, my wrists, elbows, knees
Y is for yummy food you make – I am a good cook. My lasagna and fried chicken I am particularly proud of.
Z is for Zodiac sign - Virgo

Sunday, July 24, 2005

1985 Suburban

Well, we sold it. I had such a flow of emotion. I cried, I was happy that a fellow ol Chevy lover who lives in the area bought it. He has the mechanical skills to keep her running. FOr that, I am glad.

I know it was time. Gas is 2.25 a gallon. My dh does not know how to fix or even maintain a vehicle. I was having a hard time climbing in, parking it, even driving it-with my arthritis. I know it was time to let it go, but it did not make it a lot easier.

It was tempting to "go shopping" last night, but the money is earmarked towards my new ride, so I had to hold off.
I am hoping for a mini van. I never thought I would say that,even 10 years ago. I wanted to keep that suburban running forever. Now I just want easy,lol. Even the boys are looking forward to a mini van, so we will have enough room for their friends and all their stuff. A mini van fits with my lifestyle and image. Old, reliable, sports mom- see a mini van fits perfect,lol.

Thursday, July 21, 2005

it is a gabillion degrees here

HOT HOT HOT! The weatherman keeps teasing us-"BEEP BEEP BEEP- Weather Alert" Severe thunderstorms in your area" well, it is sunny as can be and getting hotter by the minute. Everytime he says it is going to rain and it doesn't I am so disappointed,lol.I am buying an ugly fan tomorrow, this cute one is not working,lol.

Ok, I admit to not understanding the new fads, I am totally "on the outside" as my kids say. But this new fad, boys wearing girls jeans??? These are the kids who would rather be called anything but "gay" so I can not imagine them wearing girl jeans. I guess that makes me old.

My ex said he is "going to take care of the warrant stuff" Yeah, right,lol. I called MVD and they said they probably would not continue pursuing me, to bring the paperwork in. I am going to do that tomorrow I think.

I did not get enough sleep last night, so I am pretty pooped here, and can't get motivated. I am giving up on that today. I accomplished the minimum expectations I have for myself, so I guess that is fine,lol.

I want to scrap tomorrow, I think I am going to spend the rest of the day getting my mind ready for that.

Monday, July 18, 2005

untitled- HA HA HA

Well, as an update since it has been forever,lol. I had a good week last week, and went for an all girls weekend to my moms cabin. I really enjoyed the relaxation, and the weather. My sister and I went to a scrapbook store and worked on our books one day. We found a Sonic too, so that was a pretty good day.

I had some feelings about my mom and my sister though, which are now making me feel guilty of course,lol. They are both judgemental, and black and white type of people, even when it comes to me. That is/was tough.

I was talking about how my exhusband really frustrates me, and my mom interrupted me to ask me if I was aware how much I talk about him. That I do it all the time and that I need to not involve myself w/ him anymore. IF ONLY,lol.

I calmly explained to her that I do not discuss him AT ALL w/ my kids, or my DH because that would be hurtful to them. I do not have a lot of IRL friends, and usually don't like to go on about negative topics to bring everyone down. I said, that I count on being able to talk to her about it. She did say she respects me for not discussing him w/ my ds's, but then said that why don't I just stop letting the kids see him. Well, exactly who is that good for? ME- not them, and that is what I am for. To do what is best for them. I asked her if she thought I could honestly look into the eyes of my youngest son and tell him that he was not going to see his dad. I could never.
She changed the subject, but I was very emotional, and still kind of am. I feel almost like I lost my sanity. She is the one I pick up the phone to call when he is driving me crazy. Now I don't feel like I have a soul to talk this stuff through with. That is very lonely. My sisters comment was "well, that is why people should not get divorced" Yeah, that would have been a great solution too. Whatever. I am prideful and angry right now, thinking I will never call either one of them again. That won't happen, but at this very moment it seems like a wonderful plan.

And what started all my frustration in the first place is that I got a letter from Motor Vehicle saying that he has a warrant, unpaid tickets, failure to appear, using ficticious plates, and now they are not letting him OR me register any vehicles in AZ. His license is suspended and mine could be, unless I want to pay his tickets and can get him to go to court. Well, that is not going to happen,lol. I spoke w/ the court and they said that it is possible that if I take my divorce papers to motor vehicle that they might drop my name from this, but there is no guarantee about it. I guess I will find out later.

Then there is the moral and legal dilemma of visitation. He recently entered their lives after a 5 year absence. They have been enjoying having him in their life. It is still a very dysfuntional situation, but they are teenagers and I did not believe it was dangerous.
I do not have a legal obligation to send them to see him. I have full custody and any visitation I "allow" him to have is up to me. I have always however, allowed him access to this vistation, and the times he did not take them, were of his own doing. But now, he has no drivers license, and a warrant. I do not believe him to be an unsafe driver, so I can not say that. But, I do think it is a bad thing for my kids to be visiting someone w/ a warrant. I would hate for my ds's to see that, and I would hate for something to go wrong. But what if he is never picked up on this warrant. How long would I keep the kids from him? Forever? That does not seem right I don't think. I am questioning myself over and over and then I get mad at my ex for putting me in this situation where I have to think about all this, since obviously he doesn't.

If anyone out there is listening, let me know,lol.

Saturday, July 09, 2005

The quest for the perfect cup-will it end?

I am very particular about what I drink out of, much more so than what is inside,lol. I am not loyal to any brand of soda, I can even drink store brand. Same w/ coffee, tea, etc. I mostly drink water, and I don't have a favorite brand of that either, but I don't drink tap water. Period.
It isn't just cups, it is mugs, bottles etc. My number one criteria is that it is lightweight. I do not want to have to strain to have to lift any cup, mug etc. I prefer cups w/ lids, or bottles,since I have a spaz of a dog. If it is a bottle, I prefer the sport top.
If it is a cup or mug, the opening needs to be large. I have a gigantic nose and do not like anything pressing on it.
I drop things like crazy so it is best if there is something to really hang onto, lol.
Then there is the issue of portability. I must be able to fit it in the car. It should have some type of way to help keep the beverage cool.
Two I got this year were a bottle holder, that goes in the freezer ( the holder does) and has a strap. The bottle that fits in it is great.
The other one is a half gallon ( there goes the light thing,lol) and has a nice cover to help w/ keeping it cold, and then has an insert that you freeze and screw it into the lid and it helps keep it cold w/o diluting what you are drinking. I like this one too because it has a zipper to hold my DL, debit card, a little cash and my keys. This one is nice if I have a short game or something.
Then I came home from the dollar store w/ a bottle that has that freezer thing and When it will end? Maybe when I invent it?? I have not found the perfect solution just yet.

Thursday, July 07, 2005

great day/rough night

I had a wonderful day yesterday. I went to Scrapbooks ETC and scrapped w/ my friend Vivian. I had some extra spending money, so it was sure fun. We had a great lunch at Panda Express, instead of our usual lunch next door at the bakery. We did have to stop off at the bakery after, for granola and some loaves of bread. Their bread is just as wonderful as ever, but I think their customer service is headed downhill. Hopefully it was just one ( or two) bad days,lol.
I got home kinda late last night, after picking up Joel from work and going for dinner. We fell into bed, only to wake up a couple of hours later w/ our kitten attacking me. My hands don't work really well at night and so Chris has to help "peel" the cat off of my head. After we get back to sleep at 3:30, our dogs woke us up barking like crazy at our fence. We tried to ignore it, hoping they would stop, but after a few minutes Chris had to go outside to see what was up. He got dressed, put on socks, shoes and then, grabbed his bat ( I have to lmbo everytime he grabs that thing, it is like a macho thing I think) . He comes back in a few minutes later, all 3 dogs in tow, and said that there was a kitten outside our fence and they had her too scared to move, and since she was sitting there, they just kept on barking. GREAT,lol.
If I get woken up after say 1 o'clock, I can't get back to sleep no matter what. So, I feel like I have not slept at all, and yet I am up for the day. What a drag. Hopefully a nap is in my future.

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

OH MY,lol. I see a scrapbook page coming on

When Joel got his work schedule for the week, I noticed several shifts that are only one hour. Seeing as we live 30 mins ea way from work, that was a little annoying. I asked Joel why they scheduled him that way and his answer was " I am god"
Not wanting to get into it w/ him, and since there is nothing I could do about it at that time, I just let that comment go.
Later on in the evening, Chris asked Joel if he was happy w/ his new schedule for the week. Joel said that he was, but that "Mom sure isn't" Chris asked him why and Joel explained the one hour shift thing, and Chris said that he understands my frustration. Joel said " I really can't help it, I am god"
Upon hearing that for the second time, I decided I better set him straight,lol. I asked him why he kept saying that he is god, and was this entire job/having his own money and lots of responsiblitly thing going to his head. He replied that he is "guard on duty, aka g.o.d."
AHhhhhhhh well, all I can do is LMBO at that one.
Moral of the story................... don't jump to conclusions.