I know you have trust issues...

I was told this, last week. I know you have trust issues with me...but I don't understand why you think I'm lying.

I don't actually have trust issues. You have lying issues.

End. of. story.

"half full"

I was watching Becker one morning. In the show, Dr. Becker gets shot, taken to the hospital. He is complaining about everything. I think to myself, I realize he just got shot, but geez really? Everything is not horrible.

Then, his secretary Linda comes to visit. She tells Margret " He is so lucky, people are bringing him meals, taking care of his needs etc". Margret, with an exasperated look on her face says " LINDA- HE WAS SHOT!!!" and Linda says "oh...yeah"

I remember thinking, I need to be more like Linda. Not forgetting if people get shot of course lol, but in seeing the good in even bad situations.

I am currently going through what I consider to be a bad situation, and I am having a very difficult time seeing the good in the situation.

The actual thing that happened didn't exactly happen to me, it was a call I took at work, that was particularly difficult. I had a physical reaction to the call, which is very unusual for me. I reported that to my supervisor.

I reported it again, and again and again. And even again. I eventually sought help on my own, even though we have 2 fabulous programs through my employer. No one was listening, and I was struggling. The more I said I needed help, the less they listened. Until I finally lost it lol.

But then, it was kinda too late. All of the people who have "done me wrong" have apologized. They recognize the error in their judgement. I want to not be upset, but I am. Because I am still upset, they are mad.

I want to "Linda" this situation. People have more awareness now. People have examined their protocol. People have apologized. I felt alone w/ this call, when in reality I was never alone in the first place. People believe I am strong and can handle this ( and any ) situation. Apperantly, although I am upset, this is true because I did handle it. I am strong.  I have spoken to coworkers that I have a lot of respect for, who have taken the time to describe me, to me. I have really enjoyed hearing how they see me, as a person/employee.

But for right now, I am still Lisa. I have seen people pull together for other coworkers, when they have taken what I perceive to be lesser calls. I have seen the entire department pull together for them. I feel less than. They did not have to handle it alone. I did. Even though I spoke and spoke and yelled and yelled I still had to handle it.

As a woman of faith I just have to try to believe that everything, this call, its outcome, happen for a reason.

Parsons' Family Restaurant. We ate there as a family lots of times. It was our usual Sunday brunch spot. Usually Papa and Uncle Shawn would join us. We ate their for their Friday Fish Fry most Fridays also. Sometimes my parents would join us. Once, even my Grandpa was visiting from Wisconsin, during lent. So off we went to Parsons. They knew us by name. We knew them by name. My boys have no memory of this restaurant. We have some plans of going to visit Glendale, and visit some of the places I used to take them as kids.
Also on the list will be Dazzos, La Rosa if it is still open, and a good walk around downtown Glendale.

Spring Festival of the Arts 2013 :)

The boys and I have been going to the festival of the arts for a few years now. We love to look at all the artists and their unique art, but this year the focus was on food lol. We had funnel cakes, chicken on a stick, and lunch was Fatburgers. We love to go on Fridays, because they put a fried egg on your burger w/o charge. This year they forgot to waive the charge for the egg, so they gave us extra fries. Let's just say when we left, the burgers were not the only things feeling fat ;)