I am really getting frustrated w/ people lately. Well, not just people, but PEOPLE,lol. People who are responsible to me, or to my kids, and who are shirking their responsiblities. They have a lot of nerve, then, to tell me that I am either A) a crappy mom or B) such a good mom, that is why they can be so darn irresponsible.
I am ticked off at my DH too, because he has really gotten lazy and unmotivated. I don't have enough energy to pick up his slack.He really seems to feel that he should be able to go to work and then, do nothing else ever. I know we all need relaxing and down time, but I did not mean to marry the poster child of it,lol.
I was watching outlaws on CMT today, I guess I still have a thing for the bad boys,lol. I loved it!!
I got a wonderful surprise in my email today, so I am trying to cheer myself up w/ the GC that I recieved,lol.
I have scrapped a little every day for the last 3 days. I have finished 2 LO's and partly finished another. I feel good about that.
I am still plugging away at my mini album, too.
About Me
- Lisa
- I was a preschool teacher for almost 20 years. I had lots of wonderful experiences. I have now been a 911 dispatcher for 6 yrs now.I love animals,small towns, good food ,karaoke, baseball and walking around our local zoo. Makes me feel at home,lol. I live and breathe scrapbooking and my two adult sons. They really are what is most important in my life.
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
in and out, in and out
That is my life these days, letting the dogs in, letting them out. Over and over. I always teased my dad, for doing this w/ his dogs and now karma has come back to bite me, and HARD!
Today, Josh says he needs to get back to drinking enough water. I asked him, how do you know you have not been drinking enough, and he said
" My pee is too yellow" LOL. I guess he listens to me about something.
Today, Josh says he needs to get back to drinking enough water. I asked him, how do you know you have not been drinking enough, and he said
" My pee is too yellow" LOL. I guess he listens to me about something.
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
getting cold here!
We are having frost warnings now, after having shorts weather last week,lol. What a switch!
This saturday is our cities electric light parade, but we will be at the can't miss it for anything football banquet. I hope that kid knows I love him,lol.
I started a new mini simple scrapbooks type album I am kind of excited about. I found these adorable mini albums at the dollar store, and they hold 36 4x6 pgs. I bought 20 of them ( do you think that is excessive?) as a plan to use them for gifts next year and for some of the mini album ideas I have been planning on doing.
for the first one, I took 35 pics of "It's a good thing", ya know, things that I think are good things. This album is just mostly going to be photos, with thin strips to tell what the pic is of. I decided to do pages that would require journaling in my bom. Then I am going to journal at the end, on the last page.
anyway, I am off to hop in the shower and get into some sweats w/ a mug of joe.
This saturday is our cities electric light parade, but we will be at the can't miss it for anything football banquet. I hope that kid knows I love him,lol.
I started a new mini simple scrapbooks type album I am kind of excited about. I found these adorable mini albums at the dollar store, and they hold 36 4x6 pgs. I bought 20 of them ( do you think that is excessive?) as a plan to use them for gifts next year and for some of the mini album ideas I have been planning on doing.
for the first one, I took 35 pics of "It's a good thing", ya know, things that I think are good things. This album is just mostly going to be photos, with thin strips to tell what the pic is of. I decided to do pages that would require journaling in my bom. Then I am going to journal at the end, on the last page.
anyway, I am off to hop in the shower and get into some sweats w/ a mug of joe.
Thursday, November 17, 2005
and we're off
our family is headed to northern az this weekend.It is going to be really cold, but I am looking forward to it.
The guys are going to golf a little bit ( just the driving range) and I brought some chick flicks for my mom and I. I also brought all our adam sandler movies,lol.
I am taking my qvc card kit, so I can do something creative while my mom is sewing. The boys are really looking forward to it.
I submitted a BUNCH of baby pages for a MM call, hopefully one gets picked up, it has been a long dry spell,lol.
The guys are going to golf a little bit ( just the driving range) and I brought some chick flicks for my mom and I. I also brought all our adam sandler movies,lol.
I am taking my qvc card kit, so I can do something creative while my mom is sewing. The boys are really looking forward to it.
I submitted a BUNCH of baby pages for a MM call, hopefully one gets picked up, it has been a long dry spell,lol.
Monday, November 14, 2005
nothing new
going on around here,lol. Same ol same ol.
I have been glued to my TV here, watching some of the most awful news stories.
First there's the double murder at a Subway resturant. This resturant is a mile and a half from where I used to live, before moving here. This is now the most violent precinct in my state. It has more than double the murders than any other precinct and tons more burglaries etc.
Anyway, two 17 yr old boys, athletes, good students and hard workers were killed while they closed up this resturant. It started as an armed robbery, and ended with both of them dead. To make it even worse, the killers were three students from the same high school as the victims. They were 16, 15 and 15. How does this happen? Sixty dollars. Wow, just wow.
The news of two pedophiles broke today. One a psychiatrist, one a 17 yr old boy, whose mom ran an in home daycare. One of his victims was 8 months old.
Last night, two girls who were swimming in a canal drowned. They were 3 and 8 yrs old.
Carjackings, and even the newest thing, car surfing. Getting on top of the car while it is moving. That has killed two people here in the last 6 months.
It all gets to me, but the subway deal just really tugs at my heart. All teenagers. All of their lives ended. For nothing. How did we get here? What can we do? How can it end?
I don't share a popular opinon on this, but I do not believe in young people being charged or treated as adults. They aren't. Their is more than enough evidence that their brains are not fully developed. Our society does not treat them as adults in any other way, why? Because they are not adults.
Arizona is a perfect example of how this is not working, and how we punish adults is not working. I do not have all the answers, and it is something I do struggle with. Our state spends tons of money on jails, prisons, prosecutors. Less on education, less on social services. Where does that leave us? Dead last on every list. Lowest drop out rates? not AZ, we are 50th. Infant mortality rates? we are in the low 40's. We were recently ranked the "stupidest " state in the union. Great, just great.
I just think we need to really look at this, but I don't see that happening in my lifetime. We will continue to spend money after the fact on bandaids.
I have been glued to my TV here, watching some of the most awful news stories.
First there's the double murder at a Subway resturant. This resturant is a mile and a half from where I used to live, before moving here. This is now the most violent precinct in my state. It has more than double the murders than any other precinct and tons more burglaries etc.
Anyway, two 17 yr old boys, athletes, good students and hard workers were killed while they closed up this resturant. It started as an armed robbery, and ended with both of them dead. To make it even worse, the killers were three students from the same high school as the victims. They were 16, 15 and 15. How does this happen? Sixty dollars. Wow, just wow.
The news of two pedophiles broke today. One a psychiatrist, one a 17 yr old boy, whose mom ran an in home daycare. One of his victims was 8 months old.
Last night, two girls who were swimming in a canal drowned. They were 3 and 8 yrs old.
Carjackings, and even the newest thing, car surfing. Getting on top of the car while it is moving. That has killed two people here in the last 6 months.
It all gets to me, but the subway deal just really tugs at my heart. All teenagers. All of their lives ended. For nothing. How did we get here? What can we do? How can it end?
I don't share a popular opinon on this, but I do not believe in young people being charged or treated as adults. They aren't. Their is more than enough evidence that their brains are not fully developed. Our society does not treat them as adults in any other way, why? Because they are not adults.
Arizona is a perfect example of how this is not working, and how we punish adults is not working. I do not have all the answers, and it is something I do struggle with. Our state spends tons of money on jails, prisons, prosecutors. Less on education, less on social services. Where does that leave us? Dead last on every list. Lowest drop out rates? not AZ, we are 50th. Infant mortality rates? we are in the low 40's. We were recently ranked the "stupidest " state in the union. Great, just great.
I just think we need to really look at this, but I don't see that happening in my lifetime. We will continue to spend money after the fact on bandaids.
Saturday, November 05, 2005
tomorrows plans
Well, today was the end......... of the 05 football season. We had a great season.
Today during the boys' practice I went to the grocery store and bought all of the boys' favorite microwave ( aka crap) food.We went to the cheapie movie rental place and rented 4 movies. Then, we came home, cleaned the house and went on "vacation" no one is doing anything the rest of the weekend!!! I am soooooooooo excited.The boys and I are going to stay home, eat junk and watch movies. I am also going to scrap.
Dh is excited too, he is going to play golf for his birthday, with his friend Frank. He is going to be taking off w/ the car, so I planned a neat day w/ the boys so we would forget we were stuck w/o a car,lmbo.
I found the greatest mini album at the dollar tree, bought one, to see if I would really like it. Well, I love them, I am going to go back and buy some more. My first project is going to be a "its a good thing" album, w/ pics and journaling about things that I really like. ( of course my chocolate diet coke from sonic will make the first page,lmbo.I am going to pick some up for some more mini albums I have been wanting to do and some extras for gift ideas for next year.
Today during the boys' practice I went to the grocery store and bought all of the boys' favorite microwave ( aka crap) food.We went to the cheapie movie rental place and rented 4 movies. Then, we came home, cleaned the house and went on "vacation" no one is doing anything the rest of the weekend!!! I am soooooooooo excited.The boys and I are going to stay home, eat junk and watch movies. I am also going to scrap.
Dh is excited too, he is going to play golf for his birthday, with his friend Frank. He is going to be taking off w/ the car, so I planned a neat day w/ the boys so we would forget we were stuck w/o a car,lmbo.
I found the greatest mini album at the dollar tree, bought one, to see if I would really like it. Well, I love them, I am going to go back and buy some more. My first project is going to be a "its a good thing" album, w/ pics and journaling about things that I really like. ( of course my chocolate diet coke from sonic will make the first page,lmbo.I am going to pick some up for some more mini albums I have been wanting to do and some extras for gift ideas for next year.
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
tired
but doing ok.
I called the good ol mental health provider today, I think I need to talk to someone about some stressors that I have in my life. I have gone a couple of times in my life, once when I had a miscarriage and once right before I got divorced from my kids dad. It was very helpful and I am sure it will be again.
I love Sonic commercials almost as much as I love Sonic.The new one about the extra long cheese coneys and tots. "Go ahead and get the drink then" lmbo.
I took pictures of sonic today, I am going to do a scrapbook page about it. I know that sounds wierd, but it is something I love so it is going into my BOM.
Joel is really giving me a hard time about his license. I just do not think he is quite ready. Closer, yes but not ready.
Well, before I put us both to sleep............. night.
I called the good ol mental health provider today, I think I need to talk to someone about some stressors that I have in my life. I have gone a couple of times in my life, once when I had a miscarriage and once right before I got divorced from my kids dad. It was very helpful and I am sure it will be again.
I love Sonic commercials almost as much as I love Sonic.The new one about the extra long cheese coneys and tots. "Go ahead and get the drink then" lmbo.
I took pictures of sonic today, I am going to do a scrapbook page about it. I know that sounds wierd, but it is something I love so it is going into my BOM.
Joel is really giving me a hard time about his license. I just do not think he is quite ready. Closer, yes but not ready.
Well, before I put us both to sleep............. night.
Sunday, October 30, 2005
just a day
Chris really stepped up today, it was great. I needed to finish some things for a swap( had to go to the LSS, an hour away, and work there) Joel needed to go to the mall (with him, need/want to go to the mall is about the same thing,lmbo) Chris dropped me off at the LSS and took the boys to the mall. They had a really good time, and came back and picked me up. It was really nice for me not to have to handle all of that by myself.
We are going to have a great dinner, steaks on the george forman and baked potatoes. Easy, quick but oh so good dinner. It is starting to get cooler( like 85,lol) at night now so we can eat soup. I have been hankering soup for a few weeks, and am going to make a lot of crock pot soups this fall/winter.
We are going to have a great dinner, steaks on the george forman and baked potatoes. Easy, quick but oh so good dinner. It is starting to get cooler( like 85,lol) at night now so we can eat soup. I have been hankering soup for a few weeks, and am going to make a lot of crock pot soups this fall/winter.
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
on a mission
I have been on a mission for the past few months to declutter. To get rid of stuff.
I have spent the last 22 years collecting stuff. Stuff for my dream house. Stuff for my home. Stuff for my kids. Stuff for teaching and stuff for crafts.
I am a bargin hunter, so I got a great deal on all this stuff. My kids have become bargin hunters too, so they have been collecting too,lol.
This week, I filled our trash can completely full, two days before they are coming to pick up trash. I have been to goodwill twice. I was able to control myself while in the thrift store too,lol. ( Lets not bring home MORE clutter,lmbo.)
Now that I am pretty much set, I feel like this is "it", I am not moving again, stuff that I have been collecting either has a place or it doesn't. That has been helpful in getting rid of stuff. I have( so far) not been sad about anything I have thrown or given away. No regrets.
I am trying to donate everything that could possibly have a use, or recycle it, and only throw away absolute junk.I am not a big fan of throwing away stuff, adding to the landfill problem.
That is why, normally, we have just one bag of trash a week. Our paper/cardboard is either recycled, used as weed barrier or composted. Our food scraps are either composted or fed to our animals. Pretty much the only trash we have is plastic stuff. I feel good about that!
I have a loooooong way to go.
I am the only one on board here, still after 2 or 3 months. My dh will not get rid of one thing. Shirts that he has not worn in the entire 8 years that I have known him. Shirts that are too small and are missing more buttons than are there.
My kids will get rid of clothes that do not fit them anymore, but that is about it. Joel refuses to get rid of any toy that he has ever touched.
It's ok, one day at a time,lol.
Josh's x-box broke yesterday. That really stinks.
I shopped for some more landscape plants today, spent 20 bucks and got quite a few things. Josh and I are going to get them planted tomorrow.
Gonna sign off for now.
I have spent the last 22 years collecting stuff. Stuff for my dream house. Stuff for my home. Stuff for my kids. Stuff for teaching and stuff for crafts.
I am a bargin hunter, so I got a great deal on all this stuff. My kids have become bargin hunters too, so they have been collecting too,lol.
This week, I filled our trash can completely full, two days before they are coming to pick up trash. I have been to goodwill twice. I was able to control myself while in the thrift store too,lol. ( Lets not bring home MORE clutter,lmbo.)
Now that I am pretty much set, I feel like this is "it", I am not moving again, stuff that I have been collecting either has a place or it doesn't. That has been helpful in getting rid of stuff. I have( so far) not been sad about anything I have thrown or given away. No regrets.
I am trying to donate everything that could possibly have a use, or recycle it, and only throw away absolute junk.I am not a big fan of throwing away stuff, adding to the landfill problem.
That is why, normally, we have just one bag of trash a week. Our paper/cardboard is either recycled, used as weed barrier or composted. Our food scraps are either composted or fed to our animals. Pretty much the only trash we have is plastic stuff. I feel good about that!
I have a loooooong way to go.
I am the only one on board here, still after 2 or 3 months. My dh will not get rid of one thing. Shirts that he has not worn in the entire 8 years that I have known him. Shirts that are too small and are missing more buttons than are there.
My kids will get rid of clothes that do not fit them anymore, but that is about it. Joel refuses to get rid of any toy that he has ever touched.
It's ok, one day at a time,lol.
Josh's x-box broke yesterday. That really stinks.
I shopped for some more landscape plants today, spent 20 bucks and got quite a few things. Josh and I are going to get them planted tomorrow.
Gonna sign off for now.
Thursday, October 20, 2005
it is fixed!
My computer is fixed woo hoo!
Tonight is a football game, we are predicted to win-woo hoo!My parents are coming, that is always fun.
Today we got a lot of errands done, hopefully tomorrow will be an easy day. I want to scrap!
I have some housework to get done- see ya.
Tonight is a football game, we are predicted to win-woo hoo!My parents are coming, that is always fun.
Today we got a lot of errands done, hopefully tomorrow will be an easy day. I want to scrap!
I have some housework to get done- see ya.
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
oh crap
Well, my computer is not fixed, not exactly sure what is going on, but it may be the keyboard. I got a new one and when I get home I am going to see if that is what is up. grrrrrrrrrrrrr
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
hanging in here............
We have beeng getting some wild storms the past couple of days. We lost power yesterday.
I also thought that there was something wrong w/ my computer, so I took it in and of COURSE, just like taking your car to the mechanic, it is not doing it for him,lol. Well, good news is it did not cost anything, hopefully when I get it home it will work. ( I am at a friends now, waiting on Joel to get done w/ football practice.
My friend Kristie is in the hosptial. She had a horrible kidney infection and had to be admitted. She is not enjoying her stay, but she looks better today. I hope that they are able to send her home tomorrow, so she can rest,lol.
I made her a homemade card, she really enjoyed it. She will be on the list for future homeade projects,lol.
Having trouble w/ my ex again. Mostly financial, although he has stopped calling and seeing the boys. That lasted a whole 5 months this time. Ugh.
My dh and I also got into it because he keeps saying " I don't want to hear it" when I try to vent to him about either my ex or a girlfriend that is kind of driving me crazy. I told him that I should always be able to talk to him about anything. He said he doesn't really mean he doesn't want to hear it. I asked him what he really means, and he explained that I tell him the same old thing over and over and he does not want to hear it. LOL I said, well, sounds like you don't want to hear it, and that is what you are saying and that is what you mean. I don't agree w/ having off limit topics w/ your spouse, and it is bothering me a lot, especially w/ me feeling so lonely lately. I might try that on him, next time he goes on and on about one of his tv shows or a problem from work that I don't particularly care about. I am not much for games, but sometimes it is the only thing he understands.
My mom has those off limit topics w/ me too, w/ regards to my ex. That really frustrates me. It makes me feel alone and like I can not count on these people when I need them. I am going to be pissed off if I have to pay a damn therapist to vent about my ex to,lol. I can not change the situation. It is what it is. I handle it the best I can, and I am raising his children w/o help. But sometimes, I need to vent a little and say things that are not nice. I don't drink or smoke. I can not get lost in the pain that way. I need to talk a little. Sorry to be such a burden to everyflippinone.
Wow, I did not realize how pissed off I was when I started this entry. I honestly could not figure out what I was going to talk about,lol.
I told Chris last night that I was going to count my blessings, because that is usually what brings me out of a funk. I did not do that today, so I will do that here and then close.
1. My parents are a great source of comfort. I will never starve, be homeless or face adversity alone as long as they are on this earth.
2. My kids are healthy, and they are not missing.
3. We will eat dinner tonight, and everyone in my family likes what we are having.
4. I am thankful for my car, even though I spent way too much time today in it,lol.
5. I am thankful for sonic drinks.
6.I was thankful nothing is wrong w/ my computer.
7. I am thankful for having the medication I need.
8. I am thankful for this blog, it sure helped me out today....
I also thought that there was something wrong w/ my computer, so I took it in and of COURSE, just like taking your car to the mechanic, it is not doing it for him,lol. Well, good news is it did not cost anything, hopefully when I get it home it will work. ( I am at a friends now, waiting on Joel to get done w/ football practice.
My friend Kristie is in the hosptial. She had a horrible kidney infection and had to be admitted. She is not enjoying her stay, but she looks better today. I hope that they are able to send her home tomorrow, so she can rest,lol.
I made her a homemade card, she really enjoyed it. She will be on the list for future homeade projects,lol.
Having trouble w/ my ex again. Mostly financial, although he has stopped calling and seeing the boys. That lasted a whole 5 months this time. Ugh.
My dh and I also got into it because he keeps saying " I don't want to hear it" when I try to vent to him about either my ex or a girlfriend that is kind of driving me crazy. I told him that I should always be able to talk to him about anything. He said he doesn't really mean he doesn't want to hear it. I asked him what he really means, and he explained that I tell him the same old thing over and over and he does not want to hear it. LOL I said, well, sounds like you don't want to hear it, and that is what you are saying and that is what you mean. I don't agree w/ having off limit topics w/ your spouse, and it is bothering me a lot, especially w/ me feeling so lonely lately. I might try that on him, next time he goes on and on about one of his tv shows or a problem from work that I don't particularly care about. I am not much for games, but sometimes it is the only thing he understands.
My mom has those off limit topics w/ me too, w/ regards to my ex. That really frustrates me. It makes me feel alone and like I can not count on these people when I need them. I am going to be pissed off if I have to pay a damn therapist to vent about my ex to,lol. I can not change the situation. It is what it is. I handle it the best I can, and I am raising his children w/o help. But sometimes, I need to vent a little and say things that are not nice. I don't drink or smoke. I can not get lost in the pain that way. I need to talk a little. Sorry to be such a burden to everyflippinone.
Wow, I did not realize how pissed off I was when I started this entry. I honestly could not figure out what I was going to talk about,lol.
I told Chris last night that I was going to count my blessings, because that is usually what brings me out of a funk. I did not do that today, so I will do that here and then close.
1. My parents are a great source of comfort. I will never starve, be homeless or face adversity alone as long as they are on this earth.
2. My kids are healthy, and they are not missing.
3. We will eat dinner tonight, and everyone in my family likes what we are having.
4. I am thankful for my car, even though I spent way too much time today in it,lol.
5. I am thankful for sonic drinks.
6.I was thankful nothing is wrong w/ my computer.
7. I am thankful for having the medication I need.
8. I am thankful for this blog, it sure helped me out today....
Monday, October 10, 2005
Monday
Well, my lss class was a success, and they think I am God's gift to scrapbooking,lol. Neat to have some validation.
Chris is back to pissing me off, he just doesn't get it. I want him to spend time w/ me and spend time as a family. He always has an excuse, and I am tired of them.
I overdid it today, and am already sore,lol better slow down. I did some freezer cooking, made the "guts" of 4 apple pies-yum!
I have a big important meeting tomorrow afternoon, if you are reading, keep me in your thoughts please.
I scrapped Joel's 16th birthday today. Man, 16. What is Joel doing at 16? Learning to drive, playing football, taking AP classes. Eating like there is no tomorrow, or even later today. Taking his pre sat test tomorrow.
What was I doing at 16? It was 1983 and I was boy crazy as all get out. I was dating my future DH, Joel and Josh's dad. I was in marching band, and putting as little effort as possible into passing my classes even though I was very bright. I was not really interested in driving yet, I was kinda scared, plus my boyfriend wanted to take me everywhere,lol. I ate pizza, french fries and diet coke every day at my HS cafeteria for 2.00. I worked at a preschool after school for 3 hrs a day, and usually had something to do at night. I was either babysitting, having youth group at church or marching band. I guess Joel comes by being busy honestly.
Chris is back to pissing me off, he just doesn't get it. I want him to spend time w/ me and spend time as a family. He always has an excuse, and I am tired of them.
I overdid it today, and am already sore,lol better slow down. I did some freezer cooking, made the "guts" of 4 apple pies-yum!
I have a big important meeting tomorrow afternoon, if you are reading, keep me in your thoughts please.
I scrapped Joel's 16th birthday today. Man, 16. What is Joel doing at 16? Learning to drive, playing football, taking AP classes. Eating like there is no tomorrow, or even later today. Taking his pre sat test tomorrow.
What was I doing at 16? It was 1983 and I was boy crazy as all get out. I was dating my future DH, Joel and Josh's dad. I was in marching band, and putting as little effort as possible into passing my classes even though I was very bright. I was not really interested in driving yet, I was kinda scared, plus my boyfriend wanted to take me everywhere,lol. I ate pizza, french fries and diet coke every day at my HS cafeteria for 2.00. I worked at a preschool after school for 3 hrs a day, and usually had something to do at night. I was either babysitting, having youth group at church or marching band. I guess Joel comes by being busy honestly.
Friday, October 07, 2005
title schmitle
I got sidetracked from talking to my friend, and prolly won't talk to her now. I have a few issues on my plate right now and have no time to worry about anyone else,lol.
It is easier NOT to think about her while I am being busy, so it is not on my mind as much.
It is still hot here in az, going to wear shorts to the football game tonight.
It is our HS's homecoming today, and the dance is tomorrow. Joel is taking a girl, he is being so secretive about her, kinda funny. I asked his friend about her and he would not spill.
I love the internet. I liked my life before I had a computer. I was busy, and fufilled. Now I can not imagine a day w/o it. Even when Chris was in the hospital, I did not go more than 3 days w/o checking email, checking my favorite message boards, or looking up information on what they were telling me about Chris.
Today, I looked up directions, information on parenting teens, and of course checked my email, sent some emails and checked the favorite message boards. Tomorrow I will pay some bills online, without having to drive all over, or even use a stamp. I am still technologically impaired but I have learned enough to help myself out,lol.
I am teaching a class at my lss tomorrow, hoping it is a full house ( I am paid by the participant,lol).
It is easier NOT to think about her while I am being busy, so it is not on my mind as much.
It is still hot here in az, going to wear shorts to the football game tonight.
It is our HS's homecoming today, and the dance is tomorrow. Joel is taking a girl, he is being so secretive about her, kinda funny. I asked his friend about her and he would not spill.
I love the internet. I liked my life before I had a computer. I was busy, and fufilled. Now I can not imagine a day w/o it. Even when Chris was in the hospital, I did not go more than 3 days w/o checking email, checking my favorite message boards, or looking up information on what they were telling me about Chris.
Today, I looked up directions, information on parenting teens, and of course checked my email, sent some emails and checked the favorite message boards. Tomorrow I will pay some bills online, without having to drive all over, or even use a stamp. I am still technologically impaired but I have learned enough to help myself out,lol.
I am teaching a class at my lss tomorrow, hoping it is a full house ( I am paid by the participant,lol).
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
untitled
I have some goals for this week.
1) organize planner and write mission statement
2) organize freezer and fridge-don
e3) work on scrap area - done, but in progress
4) journal the 3 layouts that are sitting here-done
5) get at least one box to goodwill-done
6) plant flowers in wheelbarrow
7) research scrapbook class ideas/compensation - started
8) transplant plant in bathroom
9) clean off back deck and water plants, get ready for fall annuals-done
10) finish cleaning and organizing potting area
LOL that is just to remind myself of "the list"
tomorrow JOsh has a home game YEAH! I did not go last week because their game was 2 hrs away. I am not liking this new district one bit,lol.
I am such a pack rat. Well, I was. And now that I want to stop,lol I am a bit overwhelmed. I just try to do some each day, and I guess that is how it all got here, so hopefully that is how it will all get out of here.
I am really frustrated with a friend of mine. I feel horribly guilty about being frustrated. Why do I judge her? Why do I hold her to a higher standard than someone I don't know? Why do I understand these traits in my son, but not in her, for example?
She moved, without thinking about the effects on her small children. She decided not to change their schools, so now they (9 and 7) ride ONE bike to school, crossing several major streets. After school they ride to the old apt complex and "hang out" until she gets off of work. She does that because the new complex does not allow children on the playground w/o adult supervision and the old complex does not have that rule. What if they need to use the restroom? What if they hurt themselves? She said I am always negative.
Then, she changed jobs, because she hated her other one. Fine, but you were off early and had summers off. Now she started her new job and she hates it because she has to work late DUH!
And this boyfriend situation is beyond frustrating. She keeps breaking up and getting back together with him.The kids don't like him, but she says it is her life and they are not the ones alone. How much can she like him if she keeps breaking up w/ him? They were broken up a week this time and she got bored on Saturday and called him to take her dancing and now bam, he is back in. She told him he could come back if he goes to the psychiatrist since he is crazy.
When she tells me this, it is clear to me that she is having some issues. Why am I not more sympathetic? I am furious w/ her and I actually have even thought of calling cps because of this whole bike ride/hanging out thing. I have offered to help when I can. SO that part I can feel better about, but I am not a lot of help because of course I have my own issues,lol. This is the friend who told me that I allow my kids to run my life ( the comment made after I told her I had to go pick Joel up from football practice.
I love her and care about her. SHe is a good friend to me, and helps me out when she can. If that were not true I could move on from being her friend just fine.
I think the frustration might come from her reaction to anything I say. With my other friends we all share our opinions, and then we can take it or leave it. IF I tell her my opinion she freaks, so I am holding this in. Not saying I would be able to like her choices but maybe I would not be as frustrated from biting my tongue. but for now, I bite.
1) organize planner and write mission statement
2) organize freezer and fridge-don
e3) work on scrap area - done, but in progress
4) journal the 3 layouts that are sitting here-done
5) get at least one box to goodwill-done
6) plant flowers in wheelbarrow
7) research scrapbook class ideas/compensation - started
8) transplant plant in bathroom
9) clean off back deck and water plants, get ready for fall annuals-done
10) finish cleaning and organizing potting area
LOL that is just to remind myself of "the list"
tomorrow JOsh has a home game YEAH! I did not go last week because their game was 2 hrs away. I am not liking this new district one bit,lol.
I am such a pack rat. Well, I was. And now that I want to stop,lol I am a bit overwhelmed. I just try to do some each day, and I guess that is how it all got here, so hopefully that is how it will all get out of here.
I am really frustrated with a friend of mine. I feel horribly guilty about being frustrated. Why do I judge her? Why do I hold her to a higher standard than someone I don't know? Why do I understand these traits in my son, but not in her, for example?
She moved, without thinking about the effects on her small children. She decided not to change their schools, so now they (9 and 7) ride ONE bike to school, crossing several major streets. After school they ride to the old apt complex and "hang out" until she gets off of work. She does that because the new complex does not allow children on the playground w/o adult supervision and the old complex does not have that rule. What if they need to use the restroom? What if they hurt themselves? She said I am always negative.
Then, she changed jobs, because she hated her other one. Fine, but you were off early and had summers off. Now she started her new job and she hates it because she has to work late DUH!
And this boyfriend situation is beyond frustrating. She keeps breaking up and getting back together with him.The kids don't like him, but she says it is her life and they are not the ones alone. How much can she like him if she keeps breaking up w/ him? They were broken up a week this time and she got bored on Saturday and called him to take her dancing and now bam, he is back in. She told him he could come back if he goes to the psychiatrist since he is crazy.
When she tells me this, it is clear to me that she is having some issues. Why am I not more sympathetic? I am furious w/ her and I actually have even thought of calling cps because of this whole bike ride/hanging out thing. I have offered to help when I can. SO that part I can feel better about, but I am not a lot of help because of course I have my own issues,lol. This is the friend who told me that I allow my kids to run my life ( the comment made after I told her I had to go pick Joel up from football practice.
I love her and care about her. SHe is a good friend to me, and helps me out when she can. If that were not true I could move on from being her friend just fine.
I think the frustration might come from her reaction to anything I say. With my other friends we all share our opinions, and then we can take it or leave it. IF I tell her my opinion she freaks, so I am holding this in. Not saying I would be able to like her choices but maybe I would not be as frustrated from biting my tongue. but for now, I bite.
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
top 10 scrapbooking mantras
This is the blog challenge on 2peas this week.
1) Do what you like, like what you do.
2) try anything once
3) what is the rush??? it takes as long as it takes
4)go to crops, and scrap at home, variety is the spice of life
5) remember to scrap yourself
6)find your style
7) include the journaling and handwriting of your family
8) scrap the bad times,too
9) invest in good tools
10) have fun
I cleaned out the fridge and freezer, so that is done on my list. The week is getting away from me, and I have football the next three nights so that list may move on to next week,lol.
1) Do what you like, like what you do.
2) try anything once
3) what is the rush??? it takes as long as it takes
4)go to crops, and scrap at home, variety is the spice of life
5) remember to scrap yourself
6)find your style
7) include the journaling and handwriting of your family
8) scrap the bad times,too
9) invest in good tools
10) have fun
I cleaned out the fridge and freezer, so that is done on my list. The week is getting away from me, and I have football the next three nights so that list may move on to next week,lol.
Friday, September 16, 2005
the pot calling the kettle black
As I was visiting the blogs of my friends, I noticed people are not posting to them as often as I would like to read them. After checking friend number 5, and no updates I was getting frustrated.
Then I looked at mine. DOH! no room to complain lol.
I have been very busy here, football is life, at least according to Joel, Josh and of course Chris has to watch all the games on TV,lol. I love watching Joel and Josh play, that is for sure. I found a mom w/ a ds on the same team as Joel who wants to carpool to away games, so that is great. Any help w/ this 3.00 a gallon gas stuff,eh? Plus I hate to drive. I told my mom last night if I were to win the lottery, I would still cook, do laundry and all that, but I would hire a driver.
Life is good here. I am a little annoyed w/ DH but I guess a little is better than a lot, right??
I have to get the guys from a football game ( neither one is playing, but they want to watch it), so I decided that I would go to karaoke while I wait on them to finish up. That way, I am near their school, rather than all the way at home, or sitting waiting on them in the school parking lot. Dh and I were going to go, have fun together. Now he does not feel like going, so I am going to have to go alone. He does not get how lonely I am, he really doesn't. He probably never will. I am always alone. At all the kids games, at all their school functions, he is never there. Part of it is his job, part of it is him. Anyway, I am not surprised at this, just bummed.
I have been scrapbooking a lot this week. I now have 3 layouts done that need journaling, just waiting on joel so I don't mess up the stats and stuff from his last baseball season.
I am going to scrapbook tomorrow, and I am going to talk to a lady who just opened a lss in town about teaching or running crops there. I don't need to get rich, just hoping to get something fun going/meet some other people and maybe make a few bucks. It is kind of in a funky location, I hope it does well. She seemed great on the phone.
Josh is still doing great, I keep getting nice comments from his teachers. I am beyond thrilled and relieved.
I planted a bunch of seeds today, I am hoping for some baby trees to pop up soon.
I plan to do some more decluttering this weekend, I will let you know how many boxes I haul out of here!
Then I looked at mine. DOH! no room to complain lol.
I have been very busy here, football is life, at least according to Joel, Josh and of course Chris has to watch all the games on TV,lol. I love watching Joel and Josh play, that is for sure. I found a mom w/ a ds on the same team as Joel who wants to carpool to away games, so that is great. Any help w/ this 3.00 a gallon gas stuff,eh? Plus I hate to drive. I told my mom last night if I were to win the lottery, I would still cook, do laundry and all that, but I would hire a driver.
Life is good here. I am a little annoyed w/ DH but I guess a little is better than a lot, right??
I have to get the guys from a football game ( neither one is playing, but they want to watch it), so I decided that I would go to karaoke while I wait on them to finish up. That way, I am near their school, rather than all the way at home, or sitting waiting on them in the school parking lot. Dh and I were going to go, have fun together. Now he does not feel like going, so I am going to have to go alone. He does not get how lonely I am, he really doesn't. He probably never will. I am always alone. At all the kids games, at all their school functions, he is never there. Part of it is his job, part of it is him. Anyway, I am not surprised at this, just bummed.
I have been scrapbooking a lot this week. I now have 3 layouts done that need journaling, just waiting on joel so I don't mess up the stats and stuff from his last baseball season.
I am going to scrapbook tomorrow, and I am going to talk to a lady who just opened a lss in town about teaching or running crops there. I don't need to get rich, just hoping to get something fun going/meet some other people and maybe make a few bucks. It is kind of in a funky location, I hope it does well. She seemed great on the phone.
Josh is still doing great, I keep getting nice comments from his teachers. I am beyond thrilled and relieved.
I planted a bunch of seeds today, I am hoping for some baby trees to pop up soon.
I plan to do some more decluttering this weekend, I will let you know how many boxes I haul out of here!
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
50 things
What is your name spelled backwards? ASIL
Where were your parents born? Wisconsin
What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer? AIM
What’s your favorite restaurant? Native New Yorker
Last time you swam in a pool? Last night
Have you ever been in a school play? not as an actress but as a musician
How many kids do you want? want 3, have 2
Type of music you dislike most? anything loud shhhhhhh already,lol.
Are you registered to vote? Yes
Do you have cable? no, satellite though
Have you ever ridden on a moped? no
Ever prank call someone? no
Ever get a parking ticket? no
Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? never
Where is the farthest place you have traveled to? from AZ to WI
Do you have a garden? yes
What’s your favorite comic strip? baby blues or family circus
Do you really know all the words to your national anthem? yes
Bath or shower, morning or night? shower in morning
Best movie you’ve seen in the past month? hmm, I re watched a fave, mystic river
Favorite pizza topping?ham/pineapple
Chips or Popcorn? popcorn
What color lipstick do you usually wear? never wear lipstick
Have you ever smoked peanut shells? no, never heard of doing it either,lol.
Have you ever been in a beauty pageant? no
Orange Juice or Apple? orange
Who was the last person you went out to dinner with and where did you dine? my parents, sister, and my immediate family @ IHOP
Favorite type chocolate bar? special dark
When was the last time you voted at the polls? The last presidential election
Last time you ate a homegrown tomato? last season
Have you ever won a trophy? no
Are you a good cook? yes
Do you know how to pump your own gas? yes, but my mom doesn't.
Ever order anything from an infomercial? yes
Sprite or 7-up? sprite
Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work? no
Last thing you bought at a pharmacy? medication
Ever throw up in public? no
Would you prefer being a millionaire or find true love? true love, it's all that matters.
Do you believe in love at first sight? no
Ever call a 1-900-Number? no
Can exes be friends? yes
Who was the last person you visited in a hospital? my son
Did you have a lot of hair when you were a baby? no
What message is on your answering machine? you have reached 520-xxxxxxxx
What’s your all time favorite Saturday Night Live Character? I loved chris farley and adam sandler, and all of the charachters that they played.
What was the name of your first pet? cocoa
What is in your purse? don't carry a purse, but my planner is my life!
Favorite thing to do before bedtime? hang w/ my chatroom buds- hey were have you been lately?
What is one thing you are grateful for today?
That ds#2 is still elligable to play football!
Where were your parents born? Wisconsin
What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer? AIM
What’s your favorite restaurant? Native New Yorker
Last time you swam in a pool? Last night
Have you ever been in a school play? not as an actress but as a musician
How many kids do you want? want 3, have 2
Type of music you dislike most? anything loud shhhhhhh already,lol.
Are you registered to vote? Yes
Do you have cable? no, satellite though
Have you ever ridden on a moped? no
Ever prank call someone? no
Ever get a parking ticket? no
Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? never
Where is the farthest place you have traveled to? from AZ to WI
Do you have a garden? yes
What’s your favorite comic strip? baby blues or family circus
Do you really know all the words to your national anthem? yes
Bath or shower, morning or night? shower in morning
Best movie you’ve seen in the past month? hmm, I re watched a fave, mystic river
Favorite pizza topping?ham/pineapple
Chips or Popcorn? popcorn
What color lipstick do you usually wear? never wear lipstick
Have you ever smoked peanut shells? no, never heard of doing it either,lol.
Have you ever been in a beauty pageant? no
Orange Juice or Apple? orange
Who was the last person you went out to dinner with and where did you dine? my parents, sister, and my immediate family @ IHOP
Favorite type chocolate bar? special dark
When was the last time you voted at the polls? The last presidential election
Last time you ate a homegrown tomato? last season
Have you ever won a trophy? no
Are you a good cook? yes
Do you know how to pump your own gas? yes, but my mom doesn't.
Ever order anything from an infomercial? yes
Sprite or 7-up? sprite
Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work? no
Last thing you bought at a pharmacy? medication
Ever throw up in public? no
Would you prefer being a millionaire or find true love? true love, it's all that matters.
Do you believe in love at first sight? no
Ever call a 1-900-Number? no
Can exes be friends? yes
Who was the last person you visited in a hospital? my son
Did you have a lot of hair when you were a baby? no
What message is on your answering machine? you have reached 520-xxxxxxxx
What’s your all time favorite Saturday Night Live Character? I loved chris farley and adam sandler, and all of the charachters that they played.
What was the name of your first pet? cocoa
What is in your purse? don't carry a purse, but my planner is my life!
Favorite thing to do before bedtime? hang w/ my chatroom buds- hey were have you been lately?
What is one thing you are grateful for today?
That ds#2 is still elligable to play football!
Monday, September 05, 2005
my new favorite tune
I am loving the new Van Zant tune " Help Somebody". There are so many different words of wisdom in this song.
Well grandaddy was a hillbilly scholar, blue collar of a man...
He came from the school of "you don't need nothin' if you can't make it with your own two hands"
He was backwoods, backwards, used words like: no sir, yes ma'am, by god, I'll be darned, hell yeah I'm American..
and all the years he walked this earth
I swear all he did was work.
He said the devil dreams on an idle horseso you listen to me squirt..
Don't get too high on the bottle, and get right with the man.
Fight your fights, find your grace and all the things that you can't change, and help somebody if you can
Now Granny said sonny stick to your gun if you believe in something no matter what
cause it's better to be hated for who you are
Than loved for who you're not.
She was 5 feet of concrete New York born and raised on a slick city street.
She'll stare you down, stand her ground, still kickin' and screamin' at 93
I remember how frail she looked in that hospital bed taking her last few breaths of life and smiling as she said
Don't get too high on the bottle, just a little sip now and then,
fight your fights, find your grace,and all the things you can't change
and help somebody if you can,and get right with the man.
I never let a cowboy make the coffee
yeah thats what Granny always said to my Grandad
and he'd say never tell a joke that ain't that funny more than once
and if you wanna hear God laugh, tell Him your plans
Don't get too high on the bottle, get right with a man, son.
fight your fights, find your grace,and all the things you can't change
and help somebody if you can
and get right with the man and get right with the man.
So that is it- my new favorite song,lol.
Well grandaddy was a hillbilly scholar, blue collar of a man...
He came from the school of "you don't need nothin' if you can't make it with your own two hands"
He was backwoods, backwards, used words like: no sir, yes ma'am, by god, I'll be darned, hell yeah I'm American..
and all the years he walked this earth
I swear all he did was work.
He said the devil dreams on an idle horseso you listen to me squirt..
Don't get too high on the bottle, and get right with the man.
Fight your fights, find your grace and all the things that you can't change, and help somebody if you can
Now Granny said sonny stick to your gun if you believe in something no matter what
cause it's better to be hated for who you are
Than loved for who you're not.
She was 5 feet of concrete New York born and raised on a slick city street.
She'll stare you down, stand her ground, still kickin' and screamin' at 93
I remember how frail she looked in that hospital bed taking her last few breaths of life and smiling as she said
Don't get too high on the bottle, just a little sip now and then,
fight your fights, find your grace,and all the things you can't change
and help somebody if you can,and get right with the man.
I never let a cowboy make the coffee
yeah thats what Granny always said to my Grandad
and he'd say never tell a joke that ain't that funny more than once
and if you wanna hear God laugh, tell Him your plans
Don't get too high on the bottle, get right with a man, son.
fight your fights, find your grace,and all the things you can't change
and help somebody if you can
and get right with the man and get right with the man.
So that is it- my new favorite song,lol.
Friday, September 02, 2005
are you ready for some football?
Good thing I was ready,lol.
Josh won his first HS football game this week, 45-12. He is really doing well in school, and his teachers are wonderful men and women.
Joel also won his game, 25-0.He is in heaven, he gets a lot of playing time, and is captain. All of his hard work is paying off w/ this coach. This coach really rewards hard working players, and Joel works hard for sure.
He is beyond stressed though, with school, football, and his job. The job is almost over, but it really is taking its toll on him now. He is losing things, forgetting things, and the smallest things are upsetting to him. I think it will get easier at the end of sept when his job ends, and maybe he gets back into the swing of things in football, and they cut down on some practices.
My east set pool that we started setting up last Sunday is almost finished now,lol. You are supposed to be able to set it up in 30 mins but apperantly they have not met my DH. It is up, and filled, now I need to get DH to finish the stuff w/ the filter/pump etc.
I am kind of bugged these days with judgemental people. I try not to let them upset me because A)- not worth my time,energy and B) if I sit in judgment of them, for being judgemental how am I any better?
But since it is my blog,lol I am going to take a few minutes and get this off of my chest.
God loves all of us. None of us are any better than any other of us. Period. God is our judge. It is not for us to do.
Everything is not black and white. I have morals, and values and issues that I believe in. Good for me. I try to teach my children what my values and beliefs are. I feel that is my job, to teach them about mine, then send them off into the world and hope that they find their own morals, values and beliefs. They won't match mine exactly. Neither do my neighbors, my friends or even all of the people in my same faith. Good for them.
There are lots of things that people judge others about. Weight, how much education, someones job or chosen career, clothing, shoes, sahm/work/daycare, CM style scrapping, the car someone drives and the list goes on and on. I sure don't have the energy to worry about anyone else. I wonder how people spend that much time out of their day, not only to notice whatever they judge someone about, but then to post on a message board or call their friend or whatever.
I am never shy about sharing my viewpoint, even when I am not asked. But I find a way to share it w/o "calling someone out" or being directly offensive. My viewpoint is just that, mine. It isn't for everyone, maybe it isn't for anyone. No biggie. I am totally confident in my opinions and therefore don't feel the need to force them on anyone. I also am not threatened by someone w/ a differing viewpoint.
I wish we were less judgemental. It serves no purpose. It is hurtful to everyone, especially to the one who is doing the judging. Every time they do it, it closes their mind just a little bit more.
Sure, there are things that I find unacceptable. There are people who I have chosen not to hang with or even talk to. That is how I take care of ME. When I look at the short list of people who I don't have contact with, my list is very short, and it seems as though it is their judgmental-ness that came between us, not some other issue.
I urge you- open your hearts, open your minds. I saw a siggy on a website the other day that said "be kind to everyone because everyone is having a hard time". and then oprah's saying " when they know better they will do better"
Peace.
Josh won his first HS football game this week, 45-12. He is really doing well in school, and his teachers are wonderful men and women.
Joel also won his game, 25-0.He is in heaven, he gets a lot of playing time, and is captain. All of his hard work is paying off w/ this coach. This coach really rewards hard working players, and Joel works hard for sure.
He is beyond stressed though, with school, football, and his job. The job is almost over, but it really is taking its toll on him now. He is losing things, forgetting things, and the smallest things are upsetting to him. I think it will get easier at the end of sept when his job ends, and maybe he gets back into the swing of things in football, and they cut down on some practices.
My east set pool that we started setting up last Sunday is almost finished now,lol. You are supposed to be able to set it up in 30 mins but apperantly they have not met my DH. It is up, and filled, now I need to get DH to finish the stuff w/ the filter/pump etc.
I am kind of bugged these days with judgemental people. I try not to let them upset me because A)- not worth my time,energy and B) if I sit in judgment of them, for being judgemental how am I any better?
But since it is my blog,lol I am going to take a few minutes and get this off of my chest.
God loves all of us. None of us are any better than any other of us. Period. God is our judge. It is not for us to do.
Everything is not black and white. I have morals, and values and issues that I believe in. Good for me. I try to teach my children what my values and beliefs are. I feel that is my job, to teach them about mine, then send them off into the world and hope that they find their own morals, values and beliefs. They won't match mine exactly. Neither do my neighbors, my friends or even all of the people in my same faith. Good for them.
There are lots of things that people judge others about. Weight, how much education, someones job or chosen career, clothing, shoes, sahm/work/daycare, CM style scrapping, the car someone drives and the list goes on and on. I sure don't have the energy to worry about anyone else. I wonder how people spend that much time out of their day, not only to notice whatever they judge someone about, but then to post on a message board or call their friend or whatever.
I am never shy about sharing my viewpoint, even when I am not asked. But I find a way to share it w/o "calling someone out" or being directly offensive. My viewpoint is just that, mine. It isn't for everyone, maybe it isn't for anyone. No biggie. I am totally confident in my opinions and therefore don't feel the need to force them on anyone. I also am not threatened by someone w/ a differing viewpoint.
I wish we were less judgemental. It serves no purpose. It is hurtful to everyone, especially to the one who is doing the judging. Every time they do it, it closes their mind just a little bit more.
Sure, there are things that I find unacceptable. There are people who I have chosen not to hang with or even talk to. That is how I take care of ME. When I look at the short list of people who I don't have contact with, my list is very short, and it seems as though it is their judgmental-ness that came between us, not some other issue.
I urge you- open your hearts, open your minds. I saw a siggy on a website the other day that said "be kind to everyone because everyone is having a hard time". and then oprah's saying " when they know better they will do better"
Peace.
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